From .... to Creativity

lost for words, I almost can't think
need to find ideas before I step over the brink
clashing, turning, brainstorming, what a wild ride
days in the office are like this, boring days aside

creativity, the triumph of the mind, people see
don't they wonder otherwise, why I must be?
is it mysterious musings, sudden flashes of inspiration?
no. it is the hardworking one, the cornerstone of circulation

the one scarred by persistent disappointments
self pity or perseverance, it must make a commitment
the other choice, falling into despair, losing all hope
the better choice, rising for the next day, learning to cope

the better choice wins
thats why creativity is seen

Birthday Invitation

by the way, i just want to say
you are all invited, girls and gents included
to a modest gathering in the evening come friday
in my place to celebrate, what else, but a birthday ;D

If

This poem was written after watching 5 centimeters per second, a Japanese featured animated film.

If life were fair, it wouldn't leave me behind
but it is not so I just sigh and resign
to the fact that the best may have gone
instead of looking to the things yet to come

If love conquers all, then time and space are insignificant
but we soon see that it passes in an instant
and looking back to the horizon we slowly discover
how far we have gone apart, the distance our steps covered

If only I can go back, I would have risked everything
but all I can do now is to move on and go on seeking
the thing that I lost that may never be found in this life
hoping against despair that one day I will be smile and say "It's alright"

I am. . . Mid December

I am wearing. . . a white streetball challenge sando and gray basketball short pants.

I am planning. . . to declutter my room and schedule my hobbies. I think I already got too much X_X

I am feeling. . . tired

I am thinking. . . how to organize my room, optimize room space and clean up the clutter

I am thankful. . . being alive. Seriously!

I am listening . . .the Original Soundtrack of The Lord of The Rings Trilogy Movies

I am reading...The Dragonbone Chair by Tad Williams

I am..... 2nd Week of December

I am wearing. . . a gray sando with blue lettering paired with blue white pants embedded with a fiery design

I am planning. . . to buy a gift for 3 ladies. One to my mother for her birthday tomorrow, one for my cousin for her birthday today, and one to my manita for our company Christmas party

I am feeling. . . sleepy

I am thinking. . . how to play Go, draw Chibi Characters and improve my Starcraft game

I am thankful. . . for a chance encounter with a college crush in a campus even in the university I graduated from

I am listening . . . to the songs of M.Y.M.P's latest album, Now

I am reading...The Problem of Pain by C.S. Lewis

Interesting endeavors that keep me busy for now

1. Learn how to use the Valve Hammer Editor to create Counterstrike 1.6 maps. Until now, I have always been in the dark on how to create custom maps for CS. Turned out that a simple google search would lead me to the standard editor of the GoldSrc engine which Half-life (and in effect Counterstrike) uses. I spent all of my college days using the internet for getting information even on the most obscure data and never did the idea entered my head that it could be used to find a Counterstrike map editor ("_)
   


2. Learn how to create RPG's using RPG Maker VX ( Technical Aspect). I have always wanted to create RPG's ever since I tried playing my first, Breath of Fire 4. Unfortunately, I am not a good writer and even less of a good artist. So I try to learn in the field where I am good at first, coding.
   


3. Learn how to code in ASP.NET. Admittedly,this one is not a hobby. Rather it is a preparation for some project at my job. But I think most programmers would agree with me that learning a new high-level programming is always interesting.
   

A strange dream....

The first recollection I had was a haze gray mist that prevented me from seeing anything in front of me. It surrounded me like air. Everywhere I look it was the same silver mist that I see. There is also a strange feeling that I had, that I have to move forward. It's as if I feel I must go forward with no options whatsoever. So I followed instinct and moved on.

The next scene that I remembered after trying to move forward was utterly different form the mist-like worked that I was aware of a second ago. I found myself in a beach, with some people frolicking in the green blue water. The strange thing about it is that it was like I knew I have always wanted to go here all along, and now I have finally arrived. While I was still wondering about my thoughts, I became aware that I was with my family. I suddenly realized by intuition that we were here to go swimming in the beach.

The uncertainty I had earlier when I was in the mist world was suddenly replaced by the excitement of swimming for I have always loved swimming, especially on the beach.

I was about to go to the shore when someone suddenly appeared at my front and urged me not to go. I am not sure if I remembered correctly how he looked like, only that he feels like an old guide who's job is to warn visitors of the dangers of the beach. But I do remember his stern voice warning us not to swim in the beach because there is a giant whirlpool in the middle of it. At first, I highly doubt it since the beach seemed placid and calm, not to mention people were splashing to and fro in the water. But something held me back. I don't know if it is instinct or the result of having watched too many horror movies that held me back. All I knew was that something sinister was lurking in the water. No sooner had I pondered on my thoughts on the whirlpool when I saw a small swirling current appear in the middle of the water not too far from the shore.

But the current began to encompass more water space. It became more menacing as it grew lager and larger as in a rising crescendo. In just a few seconds it became a large whirlpool that almost covered all of the beach. I yelled at the people caught in the whirlpool to get out of the beach as soon as possible. But it was too late. The whirlpool had started to spiral downwards towards the abyss at its center. I can only watch in horror as it happened. But something very weird was apparently going on. The people are actually laughing and enjoying it!!! I could not believe it. After a few seconds the whirlpool stopped, imploding into a big splash of blue liquid where it used to be its center. People then started popping out of the water like they just came up from a deep dive. They acted as if nothing dangerous happened. I was simply astounded. the only thing that I could come up as an explanation is that this is some sort of a water amusement park where the whirlpool is simply a machine driven effect for the fun of it. don't ask me how they ensure the safety of the people caught in it though....